This seemingly endless pandemic is certainly not doing any favours to anyone's mental health.
Given how intense some of the emotional turbulence and irrational thoughts can get, I'm really glad I started medication before this shit storm hit. I don't even want to think about what my mental health would look like without meds.
My "favourite" side effect of these weird times is the circular logic many of the irrational thoughts can wind up in. For instance, the feeling like you haven't done enough to find ways to stay connected with your friends and they're going to think you're intentionally ignoring them. 😕
But then any time you do think of something that could be a fun way to reconnect safely, the little annoying voice whispering, "don't bother, you know whatever you try, you're going to go overboard, and they'll get sick of you. Best not rock the boat." 😣
It's like an endless loop, jumping between manic periods of flooding your friends with messages, snaps, activity proposals, or whatever else, and then backing off into the corner, afraid you're just going to overwhelm them and push them all away again.
Anyone else experienced/experiencing anything like this?
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- Self-Image Realisation
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- Pandemic Mental Health